October 18, 2023
A perfectly delightful, delightfully perfect morning! Sun & clouds, air & pool temps low 80's....
After living on this island for nearly 20 years, I do not take the perfect weather and incredible beauty for granted...I do not...I am in awe of it and I appreciate it and I thank Jesus for allowing me to live here every single day.
100 scy's (breast) warm-up3500 scy's (free)...a two-mile swim....
I've been tired since my last IV infusion treatment, but I simply refuse to allow it to rule or to stop me. I refuse. I'm stubborn.
I know....I absolutely know...that once I put on my swimsuit, I'm committed. So as soon as I wake up, I put on my swimsuit. I sleep naked, so I have to put something on when I get out of bed....I put on a swimsuit first thing. I'm committed. I eat oatmeal with banana and blueberries, hydrate, and apply sunscreen. Sans rash guard again today. I'm not sure....about that....I'll try another brand in a smaller size.
Riding to the pool, my body starts to wake up. It's not far; I want to wake up a bit earlier and ride through Lanikai before I swim. I want to do that, but I do struggle with getting up early. I have never been a great sleeper, and though I've been a better sleeper in recent years, I still have nights during which I struggle to either fall asleep and/or to stay asleep. I like to wake up on my own without an alarm, and I like to wake up slowly. However, I'd like to make it a habit to get up and ride and I just have to get that started one day sooner rather than later.
I do miss riding as much as I did when I was still working. I do miss it.
When I get into the water, I usually swim a hundred or so yards of breast stroke to just stretch my body and acclimate to the water. I see some people jump in and start to swim furiously right away; that's not me. I give myself permission to swim the first few hundred yards slowly and easily, focusing on getting my body in correct and comfortable position....head down....body outstretched...arms/stroke just right....getting my breathing into rhythm....and then....
My body knows what to do!
I certainly could have and I surely would have loved to have swum another mile, but Gram-gram duty called....
I am very grateful that I can help Laura, who works from home and has duties and deadlines and who is also making a push to complete her dissertation and graduate with her Ph.D. in May, 2024, and I'm grateful that I've been able to bond with Ead Aki.
I choose to view this chapter in my life as a blessing; were it not for a cancer diagnosis, I would not be able to help her nearly as much or to spend nearly as much time with Ead. Some might call this a "blessing in disguise" but I do not believe that blessings are "in disguise"....I believe that everything is blessing...it's a matter of perspective, and perspective is a matter of choice.
I choose to feel great and grateful.
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